Balance

A few weeks ago, I woke up to the sun coming over the mountains.

I did sun salutations with a small family of elk.

I didn’t need an alarm. 

I was removed from email and notifications.

My thoughts didn’t race from task to task, but were calm and relaxed.

It was an odd utopia that didn’t last as long as I wished.

When you realize nothing is lacking, the whole world belongs to you.

- Lao Tzu

As I enter my third year of working in academy, I am going to try to hold on to that feeling.

Try to let my mind go blank, even for a moment. 

In today’s ever increasing world of “access”, it’s important to find the balance to relax, to separate work from life. 

For without it, we’ll continue to drain ourselves with increased deadlines, expectations, and “work”. All the while, forgetting to take a moment to enjoy the journey.

For this semester, I am setting an intention to continue to hold on to this balance. 

I am saying “no” to anything new until at least half of what I have currently is finished.

I am scheduling my writing, as I do my teaching. No exceptions. No, we’ll I guess I can meet during that time. It is sacred.

I am going to the gym in the morning on my way to work. 

I am taking time to spend with my loved ones. Quality time

... and... 

I am going to take moment, every now and then, to sit and do nothing.

I’ll write more about these later and we’ll see where I am in December, but for now, I’m going to go do nothing.

New name, new direction.

I started this blog during my PhD. That was a mistake.  

In my often gradious, wandering thoughts, I believed this would be a place to document my journey and as an incentive to my daily writing habit. In other words, I thought that this would be beneficial for others and people would actually read regularly enough to “force” myself to continue writing on it regularly.

That failed.  

I underestimated the amount of my finite time would be devoted to my dissertation and working with my advisors, that I simply couldn’t add one more thing. So, naturally, this got put aside for more pressing writing.  

Yet, every so often, an idea would bubble up that would entertain me enough to write about, but would be set aside again for other more important manuscripts. 

So why now? How will this be different?  

Well, maybe it won’t. 

Maybe, I’ll abandon this just as quickly as before. I’m hoping I won’t. 

My intention is to document some of the “unspokens” of academic life that hidden just behind the vale. Also, I just need to get some thoughts out to clear space for new ones.

So, hang around if you like. Maybe there’ll be a nugget that will be helpful or informative. Maybe it will just be ramblings. Who knows. I’ll still keep posting them semi-regularly while the internet is mostly still free.